Nothing to Lose

So, I am struggling with a lot of things right now: my job, my future, my abilities as a mother and wife, my body, my emotions and probably much more if I really sat down and disected it. It's been almost 2 years since I had my daughter and my hormones took a nosedive and I've been doctoring ever since, trying to get things leveled out again. I am so grateful that my babies are thriving and my husband is patient and hopeful, we have jobs that allow us to provide for our family, family and friends who are praying for our deliverance, but it is still so hard to get up every morning and not feel emotionally and physically healthy. I spoke with a women today whose daughter just moved back in with her after living in a meth house for two years. She was wanting to know if she should throw her daughter's clothes away or try and wash them. This is the world that we live in. I though to myself, "of course, throw them away" but then something told me that she probably couldn't afford new clothing and this would be a very difficult thing for her to do. I took the opportunity to encourage her as best as I could but the conversation left me feeling hollowed out and frantic to get home to my babies and protect them from the world. I feel like we are on shifting ground most days, hanging on to the Father for life support, praying that he comes soon, very soon. Tipptoeing home, looking for rainbows.........